Friday, January 31, 2014

God is able

And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.
2 Corinthians 9:8

If there's anything that can be said after now having 3 children, it's this:
I know how fast time flies.

It feels like just yesterday I held my babies in my arms. Nursed the twins through sleepless nights, and nestled with my 2 month old Ellie. They grow fast. You blink and their over 3 ft tall. Their sweet cuddles become heavier and heavier and go from cozy to clunky...all in a good way of course.
My sweet Ellie has brought so much change and grace to our home.
She has an extremely swift pace about her and there are days I fear shes outrunning me.
Change and grace all around.

It's not easy to absorb it when you're exhausted and on your last thread of hope, but if I were to offer any advice to any new Moma, it would be to soak it up and cherish it all.
sleepless nights.
nonsense bickering
loads of laughter
whiny afternoons 
dancing in the rain
those rough stages
All of it.

As for me I will always have hope, I will praise you more and more. Psalm 71:14 
(one of my favorites)

There will be a day where its all passed. Moments will be gone and not to return. Their clutter will be gone and you'll be wishing it back.

I want to learn to be continual in my habit of NOT rushing it to an even quicker pace. Last year flew by and with my other half away, I get caught up in wishing the now to pass quickly for his return. 
Our days were crazy and chaotic, but I've learned to not rush it despite his absence. This is time that will never come again.
So I wake up and decide to live and enjoy the crazy, the busy, the silly.
I've been praying for my heart to reach this place;
To rid my mind of the unimportant and I finally feel like I'm there.
I pray that the Lord provides me all the things I need to continue to be the Moma my girls need. To provide continual support and unconditional love they deserve. To keep showing me ways to let their lights shine and mine along side them. I know with Him, I can do it.

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Grateful for my Snow and Ice

Snow and ice. That's what the weather man said this morning. School was canceled so we got our Wednesday groove on together. Which, I suppose, is the best way to groove.  

Some things I'm grateful for this week so far...

~~~Pretty little flowers blooming on my table that help make this dreary day a little brighter. (Shhh! Don't tell them its pretty much snowing outside)

~~~A clean house that smells good and I the only one that loves vacuum tracks?

~~~Wintery weather to bring some excitement to the day for the ladies. They were thrilled!!!

~~~Loads of laundry to fold to help keep pipes from freezing through the night and ladies willing to learn to help.

~~~Kale Soup. That is all.

 I haven't had much time to be my normal "from scratch" Moma that I try to be with the weather such as it is, I felt prompted to jump in and get my hands in some flour with a simpler fashion of scratch making. Like some homemade pigs in a blanket. (Recipe coming Saturday) . Some for lunch and some for days to come. Works out great and tastes just as lovely. I'm praying for some warmer weather this week so maybe my monkeys can venture outside. 

Happy Wednesday sweet friends.

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

routine and mind

You get used to it. 
That person to step in and fill the gaps where you're either incapable of doing or remembering or better become dependent on them "being" there. 
Or in my case its the remembering to do part. Moving on...

I've taken on all things I've overlooked before. Things that were his undertaking.

Take the trash for pickup (which I missed yesterday)
Lock the doors at night.
Turn off the alarm in the morning.
Break down recyclables.
Pick up the yard.
Or even just getting the mail.

It amazes me how I got through the days at times I don't even realize I'm doing things  until afterwards.  But lately that's simply the case. I've had to decipher a plan of attack to keep from running myself ragged with the extra. Words from my brother who is three more years into this life than I ...


Yep. That's all.
I take his advice and run with it. Literally... 2 miles a day.  I imagine his voice cheering me on.
Even when the fish that's supposed to fill our lull with joy dies out of the blue...we breathe and take that step forward. I know what waits for me in the end...JOY.

In pure effort to aid my sanity, I thought why not try something new and organized to help me not go crazy before breakfast. Something like setting out clothes the night before school or church. It's amazing how something so easy and simple can make a world of difference in getting the day started.

But as for me, I will always have hope; I will praise you more and more Psalm 71:14