Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Shortcomings and Mistakes

I think it's safe to say everyone has their own shortcomings. I know mine are many. Over the past year or so, I've really been able to see a few of mine surface more than I would really like. 
Patience is definitely my biggest. 

Sometimes you have to just let go
and see what happens.

When I was growing up, I remember all the times my Moma would let me help with things. Cleaning, cooking, washing dishes and what not. It was the coolest to do something that she does. To be like her. I'm sure there were plenty of times she wished I would just go play. Now that I have my own daughters I get to share some of those same experiences with them.  I love teaching them and showing them ways to do things. I find so much joy in it...
when I allow myself. 

Honestly...I have a hard time letting them do. Letting them mess up. Letting them ---learn---it's not something that comes easy for me. I struggle with rushing them or rushing the experience to limit the amount of stress and mess.

Don't rush things that need time to grow

The girls love being in the kitchen, it's extremely hard there. I've had to learn so so so much patience with my little ladies. They both want to do the same things, which isn't possible. And our kitchen isn't really designed for Moma/Daughter cooking lessons. I've had to learn to just let them do it on their own, with many reminders on the side. It's tough. They love being with me; They love learning with me; and I love that. So we go slow. I take a lot of deep breaths. I remember that I need to be patient with them just as God is with me. 

You can learn many things from children.
How much patience you have, 
for instance. 
Franklin P. Jones

There are times when I've gotten so frustrated. I get short and snippy with them. They get pushy with each other and the fire starts to stir. It's moments like those where I start to see how my shortcoming is rubbing off on them. So I stop them and we slow down again. It's a never-ending process. I'm sure one we'll do forever. I wait on them a lot. Not just in the kitchen. They're slow in everything they do unless it has to do with ice cream, parties, or swimming. Everything else is slow-motion time. They're almost 5,  so you can only imagine the amount of time I've spent waiting on them. 

Patience is not the ability to wait but 
how you act while you're waiting.
Joyce Meyer

But when I think about the amount of time that God has spent waiting on me. Waiting for me to reach out to Him, to call for Him when I'm in need, to rely on Him for everything. I can only imagine how frustrating it must be for him. So, I think I can wait on my littles until I can't anymore and with a positive approach and loving attitude. That's what I expect of them, so I at least need to be an example. 
Train up a child in the way he should go, 
Even when he is old he will not depart from it.
Proverbs 22:6

Being a role model for my girls is one of the hardest jobs I've ever had. It's one that never lets up, never goes away, and one I can't quit. It's also one of the most precious parts of my life. I'm grateful for the chance to learn myself in a way that I may not have been able to without my girls. I know that I will never get motherhood all right. The road will never be completely smooth, but I pray everyday that God helps me with my shortcomings. I pray to continue striving to be a good role model for them and even more so, that even in those shortcomings, God still loves us.  

Saturday, September 20, 2014

A Weeks Worth of Odds and Ends

Last weekend we attempted to go camping. Every force of nature was against us for some reason. If there was something that could go wrong, did. We tried really hard to make the best of it, but it just wasn't possible. Our entire camp site ended up being flooded by the rain. So we ended up spending the most of our Saturday playing at the lake. Trying to be a positive example for my girls during such a frustrating experience was extremely hard, but I"m so happy I kept my calm.

This week, for the first time in my 30 something years, I sat inside a cozy little coffee shop down town. I ordered a seasonal caramel apple cider frozen latte. It was probably filled with a gazillion calories but that's besides the point. It was a little bit of time my Mr gave me to clear my head and spend by myself. No fingers under the door or whispers of curiosity.

The week has been crazy. All three of my girls are in the middle, like smack dab, of a horrible stage. I would try and break it down for you but I myself am having a tricky time on pinpointing the exact problem, so I'm grabbing hold of positive attitudes and rolling with it.

Anyone else happy about the change in weather. It's not really completely embracing the low country yet, but it's so close. The mornings are airy and offer rays of hope. I'm exited for flannel and sweaters and hot chocolate and soup and boots...I could go on.

Thursday night was the first night of soccer practice for my big girls. It's been raining so much here I wasn't too sure if they were even going to be able to have it. Even though the thought of twelve 4-5 year olds running around on a muddy field sort of makes me laugh a little. They were pumped up. New cleats. New socks. New "soccer" shorts. New coach. It was exciting. They ran and showed off their skills to their Daddy that was there (which was a big deal since he missed last season). I love watching them run around the field. Ellie wanted so so bad to be out there with them. She's already got the soccer itch.

It's been a lot of odds and ends that have pulled this week together. It was a good one. With the air cooling off so much, they'll only get better.

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

10 on 10 :: September

1 :: already on coffee cup number 2

2 :: she likes to have the final say in how things look. in other words, she likes it a little messy

3 :: it was her day to feed kristoff. that's the fish

4 :: testing the boundaries at the park today with little piggy tails

5 :: learning a time old adventure. she was so proud of herself as was i

6 :: captivated

7 :: fresh air. ice coffee. flowers. 
OH and moccasins

8 :: i have always thought the clouds were magical. the older i get, the more i feel it

9 :: remind me next time i try to play a board game with the almost 2 year old around...

10 :: they ask for the crazy sauces, weird kid-like food. 
i like the simple stuff

But as for me, I will always have hope; I will praise you more and more Psalm 71:14