Honestly, it's an odd feeling. Alone.
adjective (used predicatively)
separate, apart, or isolated from others
to the exclusion of all others or all else
My home is usually so full and boisterous with play and imagination. But today, today it is quiet and the silence was a therapeutic calm. Do you ever have a chance to just be alone?
Without finding refuge in your bathroom where fingers can squeeze through underneath the door? Without hearing a single peep of "where's Moma?!?!" Without being found in your secret hiding place under the covers? Or better yet, "Hey hun, where is that ____ again?"
I don't get much alone time to myself anymore these days. When it happens, I'm grateful. But I'm more grateful that even in my alone, I'm not fully alone. I'm grateful that I have a God that is there to support my lost and weary heart so that I can refuel and resurface with a better outlook.
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go."Joshua 1:9
What do you do? Where do you go? Who do you run to?