Friday Rambles

I've been feeling a bit lost lately. My energy is slowly dwindling, my appetite has disappeared, the nausea is still a very frequent visitor, sleep is of low quality, my "to do" list is ever growing and it seems all attempts to cross things off leave me in despair and in tears. Let alone the horrible guilt that overcomes me when I take one minute to myself for a breather or two. It's overwhelming and exhausting. My day ends only leaving me with a sense of things unaccomplished.  But when I allow myself to focus on these negatives, oh how I miss out on these two positives.

For when I plop down in my chair to recoup from the things at hand, they look at me to see what my next move is. So what if we've had more floor time than we've had ever. So what if we've eaten pretzels for snack all this week. It's the easiest. So what if we watch that movie one more time. So what if my house isn't as together as the lady's next door. I have kids...and growing. 

It's ok. It's alright. We're doing as we should. 

We're having fun. We're together. 

That's all that matters.

Now if I can just remind myself that while in the midst of it all. Uh huh. 

That is all.