Getting up and choosing happiness instead of showcasing my exhaustion has been my first step. I decided that after seeing this on Pinterest...
My husband is amazing at knowing what he wants and working towards it. I on the other hand like to sit back and wait to see if the opportunity arrives before I attempt to reach for it. Not the best approach now that I'm looking at it from a distance.
So now, I take the time to be deliberate in the small things because in the end they are what create the big. I wake up and make my bed. HELLO Morning!! I start the day before I get caught up in it's busy-ness. I greet my girls with a smile and some sugar. I let the messes be messes while play is involved. I eat cookies for lunch and breakfast for supper. I'm looking up instead of down and searching for the sparkle that God has sprinkled so carefully in the every day.
I know that change isn't immediate. This all hasn't happened over night. More often than not, my hair is up and my play clothes are the item for the day. I get mad and angry often but have learned that He's forgiving as so are my girls and He will guide me to better decisions next time. It will get easier.
I've learned...this is my life and with each day that passes it's starting to look more and more like the dreams I dreamt about long ago. Even if I didn't realize it back then.