It's a bit ironic now. The girls can ramble this word off like it's nothing. A repetitious vocabulary session of ...
happpeeee! happpeee! HAPPPEEEE!!!
The sky was clear yesterday with a slight tint of gray. The warmth was so welcoming that after nap time we went outward to keep it company. The warmth felt good on my skin, soaking up the deliciousness of natural vitamin d. Mmm...mmm! It flooded my heart with simple pleasure. Days like this give me the opportunity to truly relax and watch the Little's explore and discover the world around them.
I watch them while they play. I watch how they twirl their thoughts around their fingers and intertwine them with each others. An act I never grow tired of. They lean towards new finds everyday...today it's the bark on the tree and it's layer upon layer. It's a wondrous design.
While my heart is full at this point in my life, sometimes I can't help myself by lingering down that little dirt road of possibility...what if we had a boy? What if? I'm not sure if I would even know where to begin. My life is so full of girl right now. Priss-pots that sparkle and shine with girly girlness. Lady like whimpers and woes to the fullest extent. Their room radiates girl. Lace, polka dots, bunnies, butterflies...where would I put a boy? How would a boy fit in this picture?
And yet I wonder, why wouldn't a boy fit in? Just look at those girls. Following in their Daddy's footsteps. A boy would melt perfectly between the two of them...so I suppose. Why a boy? I've always wanted one. I think my husabnd needs a buddy to tag along with him. Every man does. It would make my heart full and happy to give him that gift, but I know it's not up to me.
While this is a slight distraction of the grocery list I have to whip up before tomorrow, I'm still in wonder. I don't question Him, but I'm curious of what the Lord has in store for our family this next year or two. Will He make room in this heart for another cuddly little or will He show me that contentment is my heart and that my heart is content? What shall He?
"He satisfied the longing soul and fills the hungry soul with goodness."Psalm 107:9
Contentment is something that I'm learning. It's a beautiful thing to recognize your heart and the measure in which God has filled it. To be happy is one thing, but to be content with your life and your life's road is something even more beautiful.
"Because thy loving kindness is better than life my lips will praise You. Thus will I bless You while I live? I will lift up my hands in Your name. My soul shall be satisfied."
My trust is in the Lord despite whatever choice He makes. I give it all to Him.